After quite awhile

I thought there would be some new things or changes at this period of time, but well, nothing quite change .. I am still a girl who loves someone who I don't really understand if he truly feel the same way. the fact that once he already brought me to the very down stage first time in my history of relationship. Then,  same job same problem. The hardest time is when heart didn't go along together very well with what we did in reality. It's crazily irritating, and when we caught in between of responsibility and wants, seems like there's no place to turn unless we really have a guts to jump and have a free fall afterward.

well that place truly thought me lessons in life, first of all, we need to admit that there would be someone or some people who could be more powerful than us. there always be a winner and sometimes it takes everything no matter what to be a winner. It told me how it feels to be unappreciated after what you've done. It told me how hurt t is to be left out or to be the second thoughts. The most important thing, it told me how to appreciate whatever you have even though it doesn't seems close to what you expect.

Eventually, That's life.. things always go unfair if we see with the bare eyes, yet if we see more deep that's actually the balance. that's what fair actually means..words are easy to create and deliver but action is much more important. I always have a thoughts to show myself out of the ring but it seems very hard to me, and until now I still can't figure it out. finding our inner needs a long process and patience. that's what I know.

Anyway, this song is actually delivering all message that I want to tell to someone that I've been writing about. hmm I post it here with a wish that someday somehow, he'll read it and understand.. yaknow.. people said, in every girls favorite songs is actually untold message. So it apply here.. :)

above all, is another messy messy piece. again I tell you, I just wanna right and share my thought. that's it!

Aight! Im outta here... 

Au revoir et adios

warm regards

-A-