Well, It's February already! how insanely fast is that?! January was, tough... busy... nerve racking... and it's been quite "fire up" .. at least there's something happening! Thank GOD! .. owwkeeyy! I really don't have any inspirational story at the moment.. Because I've been such a workaholic.. and trying to put aside the shit that actually happened and surprisingly still going on.. pheew*
February.. wow oh wow! first day of February I got a good news but at the same time a bad news too.. and I just hope I could handle everything well, because those people already given a big hope and trust to me to make something better.. it's even tougher than i thought.. pressure? definitely!! But challenge is there not to make us give up, but to make us stand to nailed it.. in the name of GOD I trust and believe there's nothing impossible in this world, as long as we keep trying and be in a good way..
And for that one person who constantly on my mind.. I wish he could understand me without me even saying anything.. I refuse to confront him, because I'm tired of fighting, tired of listening to these people who somehow or always have different thoughts about him, tired of holding back the feelings towards him.. just simply tired!.. I hate lying to myself, and tell people,.. "I'm Fine" when I am totally not fine, I sometimes feel so intimidate by my own smile.. I'm really tired faking my smile everyday.. The thing that really hunting me down is that I AM REALLY FUCKING MISS HIM!! even I get to see him everyday.. but that's not what I mean.. I miss all the moment we shared! the laugh, the smile, inside jokes, most importantly THE HUGS!! I deathly miss his hugs!
Anyways... Have a gooooood February ahead! always aim for better !!
Best Regards
-A-
