Smile :)

a "hello" from someone could turn your day just like that! how weird is that?.. Sometimes I wonder, why a person could have that super power to turned our day from soo bad day to daaamn good day only by doing little thing or a little smile ... :) but who cares about the answer, let it happen, it's a good thing anyway.. and all the poeple who live in this earth own that magic,. I am sure!

So guys, lets put the best smile of us ... maybe we can turned someone's day become more meaningful ;) because smile will make us 1000 times looks beutiful ... than ever ..

Have a smiley Wednesday Everyone :)

spread the love <3

-A-

better in time :)

I spend my 3 days holiday to think and learn about what's actually going on with me and this whole "broken heart" situation.. and I eventually got conclusion that, sometimes in life shit happened, you can't expect good sweet beautiful things happen to you everytime. sturggling is part of our life. Problem is there to teach us how to be more wise, and it's also a part of the process for being mature. and GOD will never give us a trouble that we can't handle. So don't stray keep the faith and face the cruel truth, that's what we need to do.

Even it hurts like hell, I simply gotta do it. I have to accept the fact that He won't be 'there' again.. Sometimes I miss all the moments. the only thing I can do is remember and smile along with it..  but at least from him I could feel how daunt it is to be left out without any explanation, how dissapointed it is to put a hope and suddenly it crash just like that.. so in the future I would be more careful with my heart and will never do that to another pereson, because I swear I rather be sick and hospitalized with an infusion in my hand rather than feeling this way..

But overall, I don't hate him.. it's just something I can't do.. He means a lot to me and unfortunately he didn't get that point.. and yah! maybe I failed to show that to him in those period of time we had..

"Nevermind, I'll find someone like you. I wish nothing but the best for you two... " - adele

Dear HS, I'll keep you here <3  ...

-A-

It's not Eeasy

Talk is easy, put all your words to action, yeah, there comes the trouble.. when we talk we are like, wishing and hoping and dreaming... and action is the reality.. so when it comes to reality you know how freaky is that...  No joke, it's really really intimidating..

-A-

Happy Mothers Day

Today, here in Indonesia .. we're celebrating Mother's day..

and I just wanna wish all of mothers a very sepcial Happy Mothers Day..

Especially to My Mommy, Thanks a lot.. words wouldn't even enough to say how grateful I am to be your Daugther... and I'm sorry If I still couldn't be a daugther you've been dreaming of along your life.. but to be honest, deep inside here.. I always want to make you happy and will never let any tears down again from your eyes..

your prayer always means alot to me..

MERCI BEAUCOUP MAMAN

JE T'AIME

-A-

Hectic hours

Monday, Here we go again~

bunch of paper works to get clear off

email to replay, updating to the system

and tracking sheet to be update..

just smile with it.. that's the best thing I could possibly do

...

Have a good hectic hours Everybody!!

All the best

..



Sincerely yours

Sometimes in life, unexpected thing happen... that surprise you, and perhaps left you a big question mark in your head.. you can't control whatever comes toward you.. people always said you need to plan and manage your future. and we did, but who knows what comes after? No body! 

And one thing  I know for sure that no body can control or even plan for it.. "Fall in love" .. yah! sometimes I feel tired talk about this feeling but it seems like it didn't get any less.. 

I told myself  to just be careful and stay as safe as possible from this kind of situation,, but what happen? I couldn't ... never plan, never notice.. just happen! well yeah.. sometimes you just need to admit.. that you can't help it! when you look at someone and realize that that person is actually the best thing that ever happen in your life.. 

at first place, I am not so sure that I could actually passed this moment.. I even about to drop out and break down.. But then, I am glad and nothing I could ask more than, "a mother words".. My Mother told me how to be a whole-hearted.. She told me, everything happens for reason, and if it's meant to be it will be.. :) relieve? yesss! and now, one of the people who believe that "you don't have to own that person to love and to care" is me.. :) ... hmm however, still deep inside here.... 

-A- 

why can't I?

I regret what's happening now.. I never thought I would be in this kind of situation.. I was meant to stay as far as possible for getting myself into this .. but now. looked what you've done to me.. I really hate when people around us didn't know how much it meant to me, and how cruel you are to me.. I've been twisting my mind, think what did I do wrong? I want to put all the blame on you, but my heart's always telling me "it's not fair to do so" ... I hate that apparently you are the one who's comming to me, you're the one who start it... you took my heart in  your hand, playing with it, and now scattered it on the ground..

but still ...

WHY CAN'T I HATE YOU ??

one last cry

I always love this song.. 

but just never thought... I will be in this situation

The Ugly Truth

why the hell TRUTH is always ugly?? always hurt? always intimidating?
TRUTH is a postivre thing, then why it has a very ridiculous bad effect..
sometimes it makes people cry sometimes it cuts people heart into pieces without any cureness for it.. I mean, isn't truth suppose to have a good side effect? .... well people said in the end yess.. but before it comes, yaah we need to deal with those creepy day, those creepy night,..  so yah

THAT'S THE FREAKING UGLY TRUTH...

heart-said

"You took my emotions and scattered them on the ground So hard to just pick up, and move on with life, again"

 

-BSB-

 

 

 

 

I know it's not normal, when I realised ..

I could hold on to someone like you for this long...

even there is a very strong reason to leave you..

 

......

 

and I just wish, one day you'll realise..

Saturated

I've got nothing else to say..

If I could measure the level..

I would be over the top of the limitation

worst, I have no idea when should I end this situation...

If I were a timer bom, I probably would blast in any second...

Mownday :D

Oh! another start... after a short end!.. why is it monday seems come faster than any other days?? actually we've been dealing with it for so long.. but back then when we were young, when everything seems fun to do.. days are just days.. But now, since we grown up, we get to know with problems and drama in life and those sprinkle within  .. days are something to consider about..

well, it's monday... which means, tomorrow is my first FRENCH EVALUATION.. nervous?! hell yah no doubt! but somehow, i miss this kind of feeling.. and I decide to just enjoy it! nail it! and Suck it up!! 

WISH YOU ALL HAVE A GOOD MONDAY!!

PS: H get well soon! and I hope you could finish your task flawlesly and come home soon

      Je t'aime <3  annnnnnd, why did you left your freaking Blackberry!?! xoxo

-A-



 

That "SOMETHING" (?)

Well,

reasons why I'm holding on to you

because...

There is something about your hand...

when its touched mine, my fear is gone

and when its all around me.

I feel really save..

 Then, There's something about your lips..

when it touched mine... 

i can feel something rushing through my vein..

that eventually stop the heartbeat ...

And your eyes,, something about them...

it always captivate me

move the nerve, like never happen before..

And all those something I'm talking about.. I have no clue about it at all.. I never see it coming... I try to flashback.. where did it start..? I found my self lost in nowhere.. and perhaps,. you're the only answer key.. 

-H's-

TGIF !!!!

well, eventhough I am not as excited as the baby in the picture about being in friday

but hey weekend is approaching.. :D

wish ya'll have a good firday.. So, we'll start the weekend with big pretty smile

and yep! let's have some "last friday night" and rock our saturday night!

ENJOY!!

-A-