Saturday Night share...

Okey! another sad Saturday night here.. again! So i guess i better spend sometime before i jump to my bed to wrote something... hmm I have nothing much to share actually,. well this week is a little bit different from any other weeks, I kind of put myself into some kind of trouble that could end up either worse or embarrassing... I don't know where the hell i get the guts to do it.. yeah call me crazy, playing with a fire.. But hey i need some "fun"..just see how it goes... but i didn't expect anything but peace in the end though.. 

Meanwhile, My friends been talking about this variety show from Korea lately.. called "Running man" and i was really curious about it.. so I watched it as well... Oh Gossshh! now I'm just like them who addicted to watch it.. it's very entertaining show, silly, lame, funny but overall it's awesome.. The bad part is we need to download it if we didn't have the TV channel.. and I'm one of those who have to download it.. and up til now i still can't download the rest of eps... :( so unlucky! i only have eps 1 up to 20 and i also get it from my friend.. so i never really download it my self.. :( and i just miss the show.. 

well since then, I've officially become a "Korean man" Fans, I watch this guy named Yonghwa on the show, and I also find out that he is a singer and very talented musician.. so.. I declare you all now, im officially number one fans.. hehehe :D 

and there's something about Korean language that make me interested to learn.. it's really cute! :p so probably next course is KOREAN hehe.. well i never thought that i could be in this moment now, where i find my self getting kinda crazy about korean boys.. but He's a thing and i guess he's worth it to be adore .. heheh <3 

 

I love the way he sing it.. and the voice.. it really melt me down <3 

I usually don't like this type of pretty boy, but there's something in him that caught my attention..

which is HE PLAY GUITAR AND SING VERY WELL 

Sigh* oke enough about my new idol, it's time for a confession that i only confess here..(yeah call me weird) well, i feel so Lonely nowadays.. and i guess that's the reason why i jumped to conclusion that im gonna do that crazy thing (i can't mention im sorry) but you just need to know, it's very stupid.. My life recently is all about movie and fantasy.. even pursuing my own dreams seems so impossible.. keeping my head straight and face it is not as easy as i thought ... it's very hard.. and hurting.. People said, i need more action.. well i will try my best, but when you're heart is still in somewhere else i guess it's really hard to focus on what people want not what we want.. but you can't always get what you want.. the confusion between wants and needs now playing around inside my head.. sometimes i talk and fight with my self,.. here I am in a massive confusion ever probably for my entire life..  i feel like now im really in the edge of breaking down... 

ps: sorry if the post is really messed up! i just wanna write.. what inside my freaking mind now...

adios peeps! 

True Convention..

There are so many ways in this world for you to make your dreams come true. Some people are just really lucky , so they get the most easy way and some people are just less lucky so they need to work harder to make it happen.. If we see it in general, it's normal this world always have " a balance element " and if we see it personally, It seems so unfair.. so talk about dreams... God give us this free mind to have dreams.. wise person always says dream as high as you can .. I have my dreams.. but it's not that easy for me to pursue it... sometimes i feel like given up every time I saw people who can accomplish their dream (which is exactly like mine) so easily.. even worst, I sometimes lose my faith, that there's a power that no one in this world can deny not even one single person... it's really hard to pull them all back.. but this is the fact~ I mean i should really wake up and face the reality.. and I did, but sometimes i feel like I'm so close to be there and suddenly something hold it back.. I know GOD has 3 different ways to answer prayer... so i should stay believe and try .. I don't know.. I think it's a punishment because i was getting far away from where i should be..this is the moment where i should face the people who fight together with me go more further.. and i just can watch.. and still wishing i wish someday ... i could be there too...no one could ever imagine how bad does it feel.. not even the closest person in my life.. but in the end GOD always know the best .. :)

Good Night! 

hope ya'll have a great Sunday... Because I DO :D 

xoxo