Destiny

When we are talking about destiny, we will never get to the end. People could have plan or simply list to do for their future whilst actually it has been written. Our life is a mystery that we need to figure out. Everything that had been happen are just some of the secrets which has been revealed. Human are GOD's perfect creature among the rest of living creatures in this world. HE gave us brain who can think logically and balance it with feeling who will support the thoughts. Scent of Love, that other living creatures don't have. whilst love itself could inspire many people in many different ways. We should be thankful, and appreciate whatever we have. We should use everything we have to reach our destiny to reveal the secret of our life. People we met and meet are actually our destiny as well. Never regret those bad memories, and embraced all the good ones.. But don't let destiny stop you from trying and Never wait them to be happen, make it happen instead. GOD actually gave us a will to change our destiny, and if it is good for us in the end HE will certainly approve it in HIS way. 

For those who celebrate it,

Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas 

Bon Nuit ;)

-A-

Back In the Line

Bonjour, Bonsoir...Je vous souhiate à tous une bonne vie. :)

well, I don't know whether it's because I'm too busy with my life or it's just my life is getting bored day by day so I have nothing to share or write about... (?) hmmm... I myself couldn't answer that. so Let's just ignore.

To be honest, I saw a lot of people nearby me are making their decision to end their "lonely" days with their love ones or can we say the "chosen one" (?) or the ONE (?).. It feels so affected when you witnessed a story end with happiness even though it doesn't mean END of the story.. it still going on. but at least you know, who is the winner of  all this "game" that have been played. I wonder how it  feels to finally make that decision.. to eventually say "yes, He/She is the one I chose". It does really bother my mind right now. It makes me wonder, How if the one we want to be the last is not the same person like HE wrote for us? the fact that it could be happened actually scared me. Left me with a question. Is it real ? you can love someone else while you living together with another person?... is it real? you can love someone without having an intention to have them?.. and Could it be real? true love who never leave His/Her love and remain themselves alone until the end of the day ? Apparently, I do have a role model for that. Literally I have been living with the "evidence". I don't really know exactly the reason why she remain herself alone. Never know as well if She ever fell in love with someone or not. But yes, She is alone with no partner. Perhaps we never think about being all alone for the rest of our life, we always dream about having a little family. but who knows what comes after.

Anyway... let the mystery solve by the time. We will know in the end though. Now what we need to do is just living, dealing, observing, and learning with what ever comes through us. For sure in the end its all gonna be worth the pain, the tears, the smile, the happiness. it's just a matter of time. All we need to do now is be more patience and keep our faith about it.

Although we are actually the one who decide when is the right time, but there's no need to rush... think wisely, because this decision making is only happening once in our life time, I supposed. 

Regards

-A-

intermezzo before Sleeping

Dear Readers,

I know I haven't been updated this Blog for quite long already. Because I am insanely busy with works and others. There are a lot of happening things happened to be honest. And yah There are many things to share but I just have no idea how to put all of them in words.

Anyway, Just find out this song by Maroon 5.. it's pretty much represent what actually happen here.
Annnndd enough for today ... I will prepare some quality piece to be written here soon..

pretty much random :)

Aloha Sunday (again).. Well, after a hectic week finally comes the day to relax.. you know, Forgot about the work or anything else that bothered you all this week. have a good quality time with your loved people. For me, waking up late on Sunday is truly a blessing.. (over) but seriously.. it used to means nothing to me, but now after I work, it means a lot to have a freaking lazy Sunday.. just staying on the bed longer than any other days :) 

Anyway, I actually tend to have more productive Sunday, But in 7 days I only have 1 day free.. So it got me thinking, If I fill all days with activities I would be insanely tired everyday, but at the same time it could be fun too. Well let see what can I do about it. 

Today 29th April 2012, I would like to wish My dear friend who I haven't meet her again since... I don't even remember, and that's explain how long it could be A HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY !!! wish you all the best and have bless one dear.. I miss you, and I hope someday we could meet again. :) 

This picture was taken on Decemeber 2009 (as i remember) 

After quite awhile

I thought there would be some new things or changes at this period of time, but well, nothing quite change .. I am still a girl who loves someone who I don't really understand if he truly feel the same way. the fact that once he already brought me to the very down stage first time in my history of relationship. Then,  same job same problem. The hardest time is when heart didn't go along together very well with what we did in reality. It's crazily irritating, and when we caught in between of responsibility and wants, seems like there's no place to turn unless we really have a guts to jump and have a free fall afterward.

well that place truly thought me lessons in life, first of all, we need to admit that there would be someone or some people who could be more powerful than us. there always be a winner and sometimes it takes everything no matter what to be a winner. It told me how it feels to be unappreciated after what you've done. It told me how hurt t is to be left out or to be the second thoughts. The most important thing, it told me how to appreciate whatever you have even though it doesn't seems close to what you expect.

Eventually, That's life.. things always go unfair if we see with the bare eyes, yet if we see more deep that's actually the balance. that's what fair actually means..words are easy to create and deliver but action is much more important. I always have a thoughts to show myself out of the ring but it seems very hard to me, and until now I still can't figure it out. finding our inner needs a long process and patience. that's what I know.

Anyway, this song is actually delivering all message that I want to tell to someone that I've been writing about. hmm I post it here with a wish that someday somehow, he'll read it and understand.. yaknow.. people said, in every girls favorite songs is actually untold message. So it apply here.. :)

above all, is another messy messy piece. again I tell you, I just wanna right and share my thought. that's it!

Aight! Im outta here... 

Au revoir et adios

warm regards

-A-

Posting! :D

It's been quite awhile since I've been posting... the real things getting crazier day by day.. so I don't really have time to come here and write.. Honestly, I have no idea what to write right now.. I just type :D .. So it might get seriously messy and pointless.. hehe :P

Well, It's February already! how insanely fast is that?! January was, tough... busy... nerve racking... and it's been quite "fire up" .. at least there's something happening! Thank GOD! .. owwkeeyy! I really don't have any inspirational story at the moment.. Because I've been such a workaholic.. and trying to put aside the shit that actually happened and surprisingly still going on.. pheew* 

February.. wow oh wow! first day of February I got a good news but at the same time a bad news too.. and I just hope I could handle everything well, because those people already given a big hope and trust to me to make something better.. it's even tougher than i thought.. pressure? definitely!! But challenge is there not to make us give up, but to make us stand to nailed it.. in the name of GOD I trust and believe there's nothing impossible in this world, as long as we keep trying and be in a good way.. 

And for that one person who constantly on my mind.. I wish he could understand me without me even saying anything.. I refuse to confront him, because I'm tired of fighting, tired of listening to these people who somehow or always have different thoughts about him, tired of holding back the feelings towards him.. just simply tired!.. I hate lying to myself, and tell people,.. "I'm Fine" when I am totally not fine, I sometimes feel so intimidate by my own smile.. I'm really tired faking my smile everyday.. The thing that really hunting me down is that I AM REALLY FUCKING MISS HIM!! even I get to see him everyday.. but that's not what I mean.. I miss all the moment we shared! the laugh, the smile, inside jokes, most importantly THE HUGS!! I deathly miss his hugs! 

Anyways... Have a gooooood February ahead! always aim for better !! 

Best Regards

-A-

2012

I know I'm kinda late to post this up but..

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!

We are now in 2012.. you see how time flies so fast.. I felt like it was only yesterday I celebrate a new year and suddenly, another celebration for the same thing.. But this year, I didn't really celebrate it like I did last year, I truly spend the night like we supposed to do (in my opinion anyway).. I was only lying down in my bed.. and mused about what did happen and what do i need to do in the next up coming year.. and I guess that's more productive new year eve compare to my last 3 years new year eve lol! 

2011 really got me a lesson.. there's some up and down moments where now its my kind of mirror to be a better person.. I should say, there's nothing wrong looking back to what we had.. if we can turned the regret to some advise that no body could give or even understand.. I could say, my 2011 is damn happening! I'm actually glad.. all the things that i thought it will never happen to me, happened.. even the bitter one :) So yah Thanks a lot for the whole amazing experience !!

and now 2012 it's still the beginning of the year.. I actually didn't really come up with resolutions.. I just want to find out the mystery of life step by step and by surprise.. I guess that would prevent us from a major  disappointment.. simply, I just want to be better, I didn't expect me to change a lot but at least there have to be a change in me even only a tiny one..

overall.. I just want to wish each everyone of you a very good year a head.. 

ps: Sorry Feedah, you got a little bit cut hehe xx :P

adios

Best regards

-A-